"I Love You, but I Don't Deserve You"; Adobe Photoshop+ CS5 Photoshop+ Paintool Sai; Pen/vector tool +tablet+ pen brush + oil water; 3 days; 107 layers
High was the sun in the sky; such warmth it enveloped throughout the whole land. A warm breeze carries the leaves, making them dance in the air. As two walk steadily in the shrine, the man then pauses. Nervously, he cleared his throat. Aidan: S-saphira... Saphira: *Quickly, her head turned towards him. Curious yet giddy, she then asked* Yes? Aidan: *"Would it bother you if I said I love you?" were the words that he wanted to say. As he opened his mouth to speak, he became hesitant. Deep in his heart, he knew the reason of why he couldn't tell her.
"I want to tell her. I want to tell her why I love her so much. She's so kind, gentle, loving, beautiful...Even though I haven't treated her well in the past, she looked passed that, and loved me. When sadness envelops in my heart, she removes it with her warm embraces and words. Her kind smile warms my heart. Her eagerness in life motivates me to do so as well.
More importantly...why I love her so much is because she is not corrupted by the world. That, being the reason of why I love her, is the same reason of why I can't have her. I'm...I'm so filthy. I'm so corrupted by the world. I earn by abducting and stealing from people..I mean, that's even the cause of how I met her. However, those aren't the only things that I've done...I really am the lowest. Even though I'm so filthy, I desire for something I don't deserve. I try my best to discard those feelings; however, the more I don't see you, the more I long for you. Forgive me...I don't know how to stop myself. Also...leaving you alone in a filthy world like this...I can't let it happen. I never want you to see the ugliness of the world. That's why....I'll be the one to shield you from the ugliness of the world.</u> I'll do whatever it takes in my power to protect your innocence. So if I can't have you...I offer myself to you instead. and though you might never love me the same way I do for you...I'm alright with it. I don't deserve you anyway."
Though he wasn't able to say those words, he took her by the hip, placing her left arm in his chest. Though she was astonished, she didn't back off. He smiled warmly as their eyes locked. The warm winds ran through them. His face blocked the blinding white lights, just as how he would obstruct the true filth of the world from her. He said in a kind voice "Wherever you go...I'll follow you. You can't say no to that, ahah!" She laughed along, and nodded her head happily. --
AMG LOL. I'm so sorry for the super long text wall But well...ok, though I wrote it in a story like this, I'm actually stuck in a situation like this. Not that I'm stealing or kidnapping people, but...next to him, I'm so worthless and filthy. NAKLDVGNDAG I don't wanna go deep through this because it's embarrassing to talk about it in public hee~ but yeah LOL. I tried out more with the tablet. I even recorded how I did this (will make video tomorrow). and I tried out and experimented effects. eurgh, as usual, their hair is suicide //sawbs but it was fun to do~ and hey, this is one of my few pics that have no textures xD
Me encanta. Te ha quedado muy bien. La expresión del chico y los peinados ( el pelo en general) están muy bien, se nota la atención que le has puesto a este dibujo, con todos los detalles que tiene... El fondo también te ha quedado precioso, el movimiento los colores que has elegido y la "iluminación" son maravillosas.
La historia también me ha gustado mucho. Puedes ver cuanto la ama el chico.
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